Alone, with no one to physically speak to, my heart is broken. I'm just now grieving the loss of the most intimate relationship I've had in years (mum). My closest friend is processing her own shit and not available for support. Lost credit card was replaced with one having a bad chip - card less for almost 3 weeks. Tech guy at Subaru dealer has unintentionally screwed up my phone. Carport installers just hit my waterline, had to stop until I can get an emergency plumber. (my front lawn is flooding as I type) $400 in permit fees and deposit, lost in the ether. Trying to be brave. Trying to remain grateful. Keep looking at the positives. Keep up the Spiritual work. But today, just for today, I can't hold back the tears anymore.
I could just say..thoughts and prayers, you know?...chuck in a hug emoji...and go on with my day ....but I won't leave it there.
I am so sorry you are having a really tough time right now, I know it sucks, big time.
Life is hard and shitty sometimes, and when one crappy thing happens it often seems like a bunch more crappy things happen to just pile on and grind you when you are already feeling at your worst.
Gratitude is hard to practice sometimes, I know, but there is ALWAYS something to be grateful for, even if it is just the fact that you are alive still, because nobody knows what is just around the corner tomorrow that could change everything.
Crying is superb therapy, do it, a lot... especially if you feel alone and won't upset your cat or whatever.
Here is something I have fallen back on a thousand times in my life, and it shifts you from the downward, reverse-gear negative spiral, through neutral, and back into low or first gear..from which you can start recreating a better reality, because you cannot create or manifest better things from a place of desperation or negativity.
You have to first become OK with what is.
'Even though this situation is far from ideal...in this moment, it's OK...and in this moment, I'm OK.'
Repeat and repeat and repeat.....because right now, in this moment...as you read this.....it is actually OK, and you are actually OK.
None of this happening right now is fatal or terminal.
God bless you, it's going to be OK, ma'am....you are gonna be OK.
And yeh...thoughts and prayers from Europe.
Alone, with no one to physically speak to, my heart is broken. I'm just now grieving the loss of the most intimate relationship I've had in years (mum). My closest friend is processing her own shit and not available for support. Lost credit card was replaced with one having a bad chip - card less for almost 3 weeks. Tech guy at Subaru dealer has unintentionally screwed up my phone. Carport installers just hit my waterline, had to stop until I can get an emergency plumber. (my front lawn is flooding as I type) $400 in permit fees and deposit, lost in the ether. Trying to be brave. Trying to remain grateful. Keep looking at the positives. Keep up the Spiritual work. But today, just for today, I can't hold back the tears anymore.
Location: On the edge of tomorrow looking back at yesterday Gender:
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Sep 13, 2025 - 6:13pm
Isabeau wrote:
Alone, with no one to physically speak to, my heart is broken. I'm just now grieving the loss of the most intimate relationship I've had in years (mum). My closest friend is processing her own shit and not available for support. Lost credit card was replaced with one having a bad chip - card less for almost 3 weeks. Tech guy at Subaru dealer has unintentionally screwed up my phone. Carport installers just hit my waterline, had to stop until I can get an emergency plumber. (my front lawn is flooding as I type) $400 in permit fees and deposit, lost in the ether. Trying to be brave. Trying to remain grateful. Keep looking at the positives. Keep up the Spiritual work. But today, just for today, I can't hold back the tears anymore.
Location: At the dude ranch / above the sea Gender:
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Sep 13, 2025 - 6:05pm
Isabeau wrote:
Alone, with no one to physically speak to, my heart is broken. I'm just now grieving the loss of the most intimate relationship I've had in years (mum). My closest friend is processing her own shit and not available for support. Lost credit card was replaced with one having a bad chip - card less for almost 3 weeks. Tech guy at Subaru dealer has unintentionally screwed up my phone. Carport installers just hit my waterline, had to stop until I can get an emergency plumber. (my front lawn is flooding as I type) $400 in permit fees and deposit, lost in the ether. Trying to be brave. Trying to remain grateful. Keep looking at the positives. Keep up the Spiritual work. But today, just for today, I can't hold back the tears anymore.
Alone, with no one to physically speak to, my heart is broken. I'm just now grieving the loss of the most intimate relationship I've had in years (mum). My closest friend is processing her own shit and not available for support. Lost credit card was replaced with one having a bad chip - card less for almost 3 weeks. Tech guy at Subaru dealer has unintentionally screwed up my phone. Carport installers just hit my waterline, had to stop until I can get an emergency plumber. (my front lawn is flooding as I type) $400 in permit fees and deposit, lost in the ether. Trying to be brave. Trying to remain grateful. Keep looking at the positives. Keep up the Spiritual work. But today, just for today, I can't hold back the tears anymore.
Alone, with no one to physically speak to, my heart is broken. I'm just now grieving the loss of the most intimate relationship I've had in years (mum). My closest friend is processing her own shit and not available for support. Lost credit card was replaced with one having a bad chip - card less for almost 3 weeks. Tech guy at Subaru dealer has unintentionally screwed up my phone. Carport installers just hit my waterline, had to stop until I can get an emergency plumber. (my front lawn is flooding as I type) $400 in permit fees and deposit, lost in the ether. Trying to be brave. Trying to remain grateful. Keep looking at the positives. Keep up the Spiritual work. But today, just for today, I can't hold back the tears anymore.
Yeah it's weird that that feels like better news somehow.
Despair is like a person's soul warring with their spirit and using grief for a cudgel. This is as hard as it gets to fathom reason. Hug your beautiful kids, man.
Just learned of the death of a kid I know from ski patrol. A physician's assistant, telehealth worker, fishing guide, world traveler. Easiest smile and genuinely kind person. At home, apparent suicide. 35.
Just learned of the death of a kid I know from ski patrol. A physician's assistant, telehealth worker, fishing guide, world traveler. Easiest smile and genuinely kind person. At home, apparent suicide. 35.
Location: On the edge of tomorrow looking back at yesterday Gender:
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Sep 7, 2025 - 8:59pm
ScottFromWyoming wrote:
Just learned of the death of a kid I know from ski patrol. A physician's assistant, telehealth worker, fishing guide, world traveler. Easiest smile and genuinely kind person. At home, apparent suicide. 35.
Just learned of the death of a kid I know from ski patrol. A physician's assistant, telehealth worker, fishing guide, world traveler. Easiest smile and genuinely kind person. At home, apparent suicide. 35.
Just learned of the death of a kid I know from ski patrol. A physician's assistant, telehealth worker, fishing guide, world traveler. Easiest smile and genuinely kind person. At home, apparent suicide "Undetermined medical condition" . 35.
friend of mine just finished her 54th year as an educator a couple of weeks ago
unbelievable devotion to children
she passed away this morning
happy trails nancy
friend of mine just finished her 54th year as an educator a couple of weeks ago
unbelievable devotion to children
she passed away this morning
happy trails nancy
